Wishful thinking

I talked to the HEM today over the phone and apparently the person taking over the science subject i was supposed to taech is a permanent and needless to say, if whe is permanent then she has advantage. Oh well... Now it depends on whether the English teacher i'm replacing will come back or not. Apparently she's away for cancer treatment. Ya...part of me hope something horrible doesn't happen to her. In this case, she will come back and teach and i will lose my job (i'm not prepared for that). Another part of me hopes she'll stay away for another few months so that i can at least summore cash (this is a bad hope....but at least it gives her some time to recuperate? hehe...sorry). Ya... it's all just wishful thinking. It all depends whether God wants me to keep this job.

I hope my applying for the RO post at WorldFish centre will come through though. Then at least I can do what i would really want to do... But then again what i would want to do might not be what God wants me to do. AAARRGGHH... does life has to be so confusing?