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my first contract for teaching was over yesterday. i felt funny when the PK1 said a formal goodbye in front of all the teachers yesterday. I felt like i was either sacked or retiring. It wasn't a good feeling at all.

I have three contracts altogether but the funny thing is she said bye to me and it felt like i was never going back ...which makes me wonder ...am i going back or not? if not, why make me sign 3 contracts and make me believe i was working til march? why introduce a new teacher when what she will be teaching is in my second and third contract? This is weird... I did mention that i wasn't comfortable with teaching that subject but that didn't mean i won't try...

I don't want to be jobless again..it took me so long to look for a job and above all to feel like i'm doing something. God please don't let me be jobless again...i hate that feeling. Now i understand how it feels to be sacked, retrenched, useless...

Pray for me...