How is it?

How is it that it is so hard for people to lose weight when it is so easy for them to gain it? It boggles my mind. i put on 7 kgs since i left Sixth Form and i dun think it's a good thing so i want to lose weight now. At least i'm trying. I cut down as much food as i can and try not to eat supper. But it is particularly difficult when you other half's life revolves around food. Everytime u ask him to cut down he would say things like "i can't, i nearly fainted the other time i tried" or "a bit of it won't hurt" (Familiar? that's what smokers and people who take drugs say the first time they took a whif). What's worst he even tries to control what u eat. He wants you to eat your the way he lies to eat it. So what? U would turn out like him la rite or not? This is sometimes just so frustrating especially when he laughs and makes a joke out of you sincere begging. Or worse still he ignores you while you speak and continue eating! Here u are trying to help him lose weight and there he is trying hard not to. Sometimes he even eats more to rebel against u when you nag at him. Well maybe that's the way MOST guys are wired but sometimes u just decide that ok, if he wants it that way let him have it. Whether he lives or dies has got nothing to do with me. It's not your life that he's wasting right? You can only do so much to help him. If he doesn't listen to you then why stay together? Couples stay together to help each other to change for the better. Not all things can be changed but you can always try to change those things that can. Even if nothing happens you know you have tried right? If things don't work out then there's always calling it quits for the relationship. No point staying together.

I don't know... for me, I've come to learn that FIRST IMPRESSIONS = LIES. your boyfriend comes and picks you up on your first date with a fancy car and flowers and drives so careful because he says he wants you to be safe. And you think he's rich and romantic. 3 years later, you'd be glad if he gives you grass on a dinner date (if he still takes you on one), he is no longer romantic (maybe he has never been; it was all in your head) and he drives you around with a an old car that shivers when it stops at a traffic light and at the sign of green speeds like a mad person! It's just a scenario to illustrate what i mean. Same goes when you go for an interview. You tell the interviewer oh you're a cheerful person with good communication skills...how many times do you see a deskfront operator smile at u when you trade with him?

Things aren't always the way it seems. I find the saying "never judge a book by it's cover" very true in my life. Sometimes i hope things would change. I don't want to depend on others for my own happiness anymore. I'm so sick of it. I don't want to be lied to again. Just too many lies and empty promises. Too many... Sometimes i can feel the masculine side of me taking over. I hear it when i hear myself saying "It's ok. You don't need someone to take care of you. You can do that on your own... Even if you can't there are still many fishes in the sea...why do i have to choose him?"